In this past week I have been able to begin the journey to realizing my dreams. It is a spectacular feeling to look around you and love what is happening. I have had my nose to the grindstone for the last week and honestly I haven’t felt this good in years! I say all of this to say the cliche; if you don’t like something, change it! I think sometimes we are slow to accept that sometimes things society views as flaws or downsides are actually our greatest strengths. For me, I love to be busy, I also love to complain about it to my friends. It is too easy to get caught up in others’ views and lose sight of where we see ourselves going.
Once I knew where I was going everything started to click into place. This journey actually started back in August of 2019 for me. I knew it was time for a big change, I felt suffocated by this life I was supposed to want. The first move was to get out of my job because it was literally killing me. The stress and anxiety had eaten away at me over the 6 years I was there and just left me a shell of myself. The uncertainty and self-doubt had become overwhelming. Once you let someone else have that much power over you it is really hard to break away. I left and found the perfect environment to lick my wounds and grow myself back up again.
Once I had made that change then my focus moved out of my professional world and onto my personal life. I will be the first to admit I am not normally neat person, but even I knew my life and home were in disarray of epic proportions. I started with the physical clutter in my house and re-organizing and donating and trashing things. Once that project was fully underway I was able to focus on something I had really been ignoring, my finances.
This was such a struggle for me, it meant admitting that even though I had the tools to live better I was allowing myself to stay stuck in the paycheck to paycheck cycle. I started listening to Ramsey podcasts, watching The Budget Mom on YouTube, and doing so much independent research and calculation. It was overwhelming and difficult at first, but I finally was able to craft a system that worked for me out of what the people I follow had success with. I honestly think that personal finances are so personal there is no one size fits all option. Budgeting, debt payoff, and saving is really a psychological journey. You have to change the mindset that prohibits you from saving and that allows you to rack up debt.
Now that our house was getting ordered and my finances were progressing, I felt I had time to look into expanding myself. I am taking classes to get my Microsoft Office certifications now and looking into SEO/digital marketing/design classes. I no longer see these things as “extras” but investments in the business of myself. I had let my business, myself, go over the last 10 years. I had allowed people to come into my soul and stomp out my passion and motivation. One of my favorite quotes says it best, “Sometimes you have to burn bridges to get some distance.” That is exactly what I did, if your presence in my life brought me stress- out you went. That meant letting go of that life I had built based on what I thought was expected of me. It wasn’t all bad, I have memories I will hold close and lessons learned I will never forget.
All of us have something in ourselves worth investing in, worth exploring. Don’t rely on conventional wisdom and societal expectations to find it. I am giving you some homework, take some time for yourself and really think about the things that make you happy. Write them down in one column, then in a second column write down what motivates you. The last columns should be your dreams/goals and then your hobbies. Now you have to go through the list and find what overlaps! This exercise is a visual way to explore your own ambitions and hopes, maybe don’t share the list with anyone or share it with everyone! 😉
I look forward to these weekly posts and as always, if you have anything to add or questions you have please leave a comment down below!
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